Creativity is risk-taking
I suggest you embrace the risk of your creativity and let yourself be in its estrus. Leave yourself to her joy, to enjoy your hitherto untraveled path—the uncertainty, the disappointment, the surprise, every recognizable or not positive and negative emotion that springs up uninvited all along the way. It's a gift!
Writing and Coaching. My own experience.
Express, create, and let the artist in you emerge, mature, and make you stand out most beautifully, mutually beneficial for you, for others, and society.